Archive for September, 2012

Perspectives and Triggers

Originally posted on the 2012 Scenario.

It’s been months since I’ve written an update.

For the most part, I’ve been playing the silent witness and neutral observer to my own radical inner shifts and also within other circles of connections.

Watching the pendulum swinging wildly from one extreme to the other and back to centre – but only fleetingly – before finding myself surfing the next tsunami, has been such a trip.

I know I haven’t been alone in that energetic roller coaster ride. The manic states, loony-bin laughter, euphoric bliss and everything in between is much like taking a huge psychedelic trip followed by a gigantic spliff from Puff the magic dragon.

Yes, I’m being metaphorical here, but if you haven’t already been in the galactic spin cycle – wash, rinse and repeat a zillion times – just wait your turn. I’m reminded of being a character in Hunter S Thompson’s ‘Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas’ – only it’s ‘Frolicking and Levitating in Los Limbos’ for me. You can take that as a warning or exciting anticipation.

We seed and create our own reality. What are you creating?


What I have come to appreciate is perspective. Some months ago I found myself ‘homeless’ and spent a night out under stars, quite literally on the streets. It brought me to a different level of appreciation for life, for love, for things that matter. Being on social media also gives me a lot of perspective, witnessing what others are going through – the transitions of loved ones passing on, the trials and tribulations of this journey of ascension, heck … just life in general – more importantly the beautiful souls who have every reason to break down and cry, yet are online daily, posting supportive comments and inspiring others during these shifting times.

These are the people that have my utmost respect and compassion.  (more…)


I’m Baaack …

After a year long hiatus, my soul has been nudging me to return and tend to my lonely lil’ old blog.

I’ve been moonlighting on various other assignments and projects, including being an editor on another site and have somewhat neglected expressing myself in my own space – except for Facebook – and become the neutral observer and silent witness.

I’m back now and hopefully the blog will be taking a wee bit of a quirky turn from its original theme.

Some readers may remember the betrayal of a partner a few years ago which led to the birth of this blog becoming a charged mission to tell the truth at all costs. I’m still an advocate of absolute integrity and radical transparency. That hasn’t changed, but the energy has softened somewhat.

Let’s just say – I’ve chilled out a bit and my interests have taken on whole new life forms of their own. I’ll still be posting articles that resonate – on all things love and sacred – but will also be incorporating broader themes on consciousness, mysticism and spiritual alchemy, as well as my own personal rants, raves and ramblings on just about everything in between.

I’m a changed woman. More of a multidimensional quirky being from the wild purple yonder. WILD!

Egotistical Melodramas

Excerpt from D.r. Butler’s Facebook page.

In Lesson 5 it is said: “An egotistical melodrama is an imaginary situation. It is created when the ego takes a situation personally and superimposes its own way of seeing things upon what is actually present. The ego makes up its own story about the situation and automatically assumes that its imaginary story is true–no matter how depressing, how limited, how painful, how imposing, how presumptuous, how agitating, or how damaging to another it might be.”

“This belief in the imaginary story triggers the corresponding negative emotions that make it a worthwhile drama for the ego to indulge in.”

If we work on the egotistical melodramas that cause others and ourselves unnecessary pain and conflict, those melodramas that are free from negative emotions will prove to be fairly harmless.

The negative emotions–blame, defensiveness, anger, agitation, irritation, hatred, resentment, jealousy, envy–are what cause most of the suffering in our life. Without them we would be relatively free, and life would seem flowing and harmonious with very little effort.

Ultimately we have to be free from all negative emotions. Not that they won’t exist–we’ll still have anger arise, or a pang of jealousy, or a bout of agitation, or a tendency to blame–yet they will no longer take us over and express through us, sending out negative vibrations into the ethers to affect others.

The egotistical melodramas we have to work with in personal development, or spiritual work (sadhana), are those that involve negative emotions, because these are the things that not only cause us to forget the Truth of the present moment, but bring out our very worst features for everyone else to have to see and deal with.

The best we can offer others are our positive emotions–compassion, cheerfulness, love, lightheartedness, appreciation, and joy. All this is explored in depth in the lessons of the Course of Training.

SOURCE: D.r Butler |